dear grandma,
the day you passed away the doctors turned off the life support systems. well I was the first person there to the hospetal. i arrived at 8:00am in the at doctors medical center went up to the medical intense care unit. i walked in your room.
I knew that day would the day the you would passed away.
the reason why the doctors couldnt help you any longer because you were 81 years old and had chronic kidney disease from you being a debetic for years. your kidneys became very damage form that.you just started dialysis 3 day before, had septic shock and you had. fluid arould your heart.
plus you were in a coma and didnt have any brain actively. it was best to let you go heaven. even if I didnt want to let you to go. not how much i begged and cryed no matter i was not going to get my way this time.
i hated to know that today was the day my grandma was going to passed away and it was permant. that really bothered me. the night before you passed away i couldnt sleep I was calling icu every two hours and hoping you would come out of it. i just walked in your room and started talking to you like you could hear me. for some reason i knew you could hear me. when i woke up i felt uneasy and very nerious and scared and very hurt what going to happen to you.i just starting reading you a book about bears. would explain to you about what was happening in the pictures.
i was so scared when it was time to say goodbye to you i was going to lose whenthey told me you died i thought i would flip out. beuase i have had so many night ares of you dying and it made me nerious my night ares were coming true i couldnt beleave it.
All the maestas klan was there cousins and your children. we all sat in the iuc waiting room. everyone just started talking about you. they would what kind of person you were. i tryed to stay focuse writting what was happen and it worked. then. the news hit at 11:56am you passed. my mom said come and see you i really didnt i didnt know how to take i walked very slow and fearful. i walked and looked at you. it look like you but for some reson something was different. you look tired and worn out. i couldnt beleave i was seeing you there and your sprit wasnt in your body. i touched you and rubed your eye browers like i always did. i touched your hand and kissed it and touching your hair. when it was time to walk out i coulnt move i didnt want to leave. so rudy and my mom had to walk behind me make me walk. as i was leaving against my will i thought is this real. i just started to lose crying loud and wouldnt stop. one of the nurses said well she was sick it was her time. that made so angry. i felt at the time it wasnt you day to leave earth. she said your grandma is in a better place that would make me so sad i wanted to be self and keep you.
